I was ready Lord...really!

So this was supposed to be my longest week as defined in my training program.  I was to have a 20 mile run, 115 mile bike and 5000 swim in addition to other shorter but intense trainings.  The week started really well with the 20 mile run.  I finished it in 4:30 and felt like I could've done the 6 more to complete a marathon!  No pain or tightness in the knees and my nutrition was adequate to keep me going.  I was very pleased and spent a few minutes afterwards on the beach praising God in the dark.  Tuesday I was very tired and took a nap after school that lasted 3 hours leaving me no time to train that night.  Wednesday morning I was right back at it and did my run in the morning followed by the bike I missed from Tuesday night.  Thursday and Friday were awesome with 2 runs, a swim and a time trial bike on my trainer in the house.  Ready for the weekend!!!!  Then the weather hit.  Probably the worst weather I have ever seen, even worst than Hurricane Wilma.  Pools were closed Saturday and the wind and rain were too much for me to handle Sunday for the bike.  I battled"failure" in my mind.  I felt a little better today when I set my trainer up in front of my computer and watched Iron Man Kona for two hours, which was today.  I cried as I watched the finish line....and those who didn't make the time cut-offs.  I prayed again...begging God to finish this year.  I just want to finish!  An 81 year old man did it and a woman who looked to be my age finished with 5 minutes to spare.  I was ready to go for it this weekend, but have to trust that God controls the weather and I felt so unsafe going out in that wind and rain this morning.  I know only He can get me to that finish line and when He does, I will praise Him like I have never done before.  My struggle is to praise Him on the way...forgive me God, I believe, help me with my unbelief.